wow! im an idiot.... last entry was a no no... in the way that hes an ass and i should be happy hes out of my life... we did get back together in way after the fact and he fucked me over again when he showed up with a "blemish" on his neck.... i said nothing about it but i was totally crushed... my firend actually pointed this out to me otherwise i would have never noticed.... i confronted him by just pointing at it and smiling....we crossed paths later that day and we just smiled at one another.... you could tell he felt bad about the situation... the day before or alteast a few days before he was confessing to someone how much he did like me, but obviously not enough... im over it or atleast im getting over it... im just getting to realize what a stupid mistake that was....
ive met someone new though... someone totally amazing.... hes terrible smart and actually has goals he can totally accomplish..yay for new guy. old guy is totally out the door because of new guy... too ba he wont be around for long... new has plans and those plans take him to amazing places and fantastic school that i can only dream of even attending... new guy is older and reads... loves everything i love... everything from reading books too hanging around a stupid store full of odds and ins..... new guy is awsome.... im sure its like the fifth time ive said that....

he hasnt called me though... thats where all the drama comes back in... im getting too emotional about something that isnt anything.... its all temp.... sad i wish i could be happy forever.... but thatll never ever happen... damn... just temp happiness... sadness...

he better call soon or im just going to be really sad...

i have issues....